JKF

Well, Gallaudet made Jane K. Fernandes resign. I guess the protests worked! I don't really get to have a say since I wasn't involved, but I do think it's important that the president of Gallaudet is Deaf, as well as deaf, so I hope they make a good decision for the next. Apparently, the Deaf community is partying hard...I kinda want to join in.
Some people are bashing the protesters, saying they were "stupid" and all that jazz...I don't think the protesters were stupid...I think they felt strongly enough about their school to try and campaign so that it can be as good as it can be. I often talk about things I'm not pleased with and wish I could do something about it...and then don't do anything. I think it's great that they held out and made a difference. Whether it was in fact for the best or not remains to be seen, but I do admire how strongly they fought for what they believe in.

Medea

As the opening night of "Medea" comes ever closer, I find myself practicing my sign language more and more. Oh, and also because my allergies are so bad that my ears are almost totally blocked and I can't hear a thing. Yeah, that too.

But in all seriousness, I'm really excited about "Medea". I like that show anyway and I think this production will be so unique! I'm also going to try to get up to Gallaudet to see "A Streetcar Named Desire", which will be in ASL with open captions for the hearing.

I really think deaf theatre might be the niche I want to be in. It's such a fascinating style and I'm really interested in it. I'll have to look at how to become more fluent in sign while an undergrad so I can maybe do my grad work at a school like Gallaudet.

My Life in Bullet Points

• I am going to withdraw from Algebra class and take it at a later date, after I've figured out this dyscalculia thing.
• I'm not a Marilyn Manson fan, but have been listening to his cover of "Tainted Love" nonstop, and so should you.
• I keep on writing scenes and monologues for the Holocaust Play Project...and I have no idea how to fit them into the script. But I'll find a way.
• FDP was amazing and my cast was hardcore. I had a blast and I can't wait for the next performance opportunity!
• I have lost six pounds. Fourteen more to go.
• I want to do something Shakespeare-related. Not sure what, but I definitely want to.
• I have no idea what to be for Halloween. It has been suggested to me that I should be Sara from "CSI" because apparently I look like her (I see no resemblance). This would be cool, but I have no time to create a CSI vest or anything. Any other ideas?
• My roommate cannot sing. Please note that I am not saying this to be mean. I'm saying this because she's singing with headphones on and can't hear herself, and NO ONE sounds good under those conditions.
• My ears hurt. I had them flushed at the doctor's office on Friday morning...and haven't slept for more than five hours since then. They throb whenever I try to sleep. Frustrating! Also, my hearing doesn't feel totally restored, which surprised me. Maybe that takes time.
• Apparently, Sweet Pea from Bath and Body Works is men's preferred scent for women. I have the lotion, spray, shampoo, and conditioner...and every guy I sit next to just smells me the whole time. Weird, but whatever...

FDP

I just want to say how much I love my FDP cast and director. They have made the experience of my first performing opportunity of college such a blast...I can't wait until we actually get to go onstage on the 16th and 17th.

Our play itself, "Small Word", is REALLY hard. It's all choreographed, all in the timing, has to be totally in synch with the other actors...yet has to be natural. It's absolutely hilarious, and yet we have to remain frozen and not laughing (my greatest challenge in this play, considering Jay's favorite pasttime is to try and make me giggle. He's good at it, too).

I'm so excited about FDP...I wish all the groups the best and can't wait to see the others!!

Diets...

...are awful. I'm hungry and I want chocolate. But on the plus side, I'm going to be slim and fabulous. I kind of refuse not to be. I'm (apparently) an adult now, and I'm old enough to actually follow through with a diet for once.

I want to do EVERYTHING!

College!!! It's like a theatrical wonderland!!!!

I can have staged readings of the plays I write! I can audition for the shows next semester! I can turn into a statue around campus whenever I want! I can try desperately to find somewhere to perform the play we were originally going to do at the Holocaust Museum (we're still looking...and we have no money. Suggestions??)!

I love it. There are times when I feel like I got in by accident, there are times when I'm pretty sure my letter of acceptance was meant for the name just below me in the alphabet...there are times when I go, "Caroline, why are you here? You're kind of bad at acting"...but then I think about it. Would I really be happy doing anything radically different? Nope.

I want to act!
I want to sing!
I want to direct!
I want to write!
I want to CREATE!!!!
I want to do EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!

Aaaaand...deep breaths on my end.